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Long Hot Summer!
Yes there is a movie called "Long Hot Summer" but that isn't what I am refering too. It has been really hot here the last few weeks. Scott comes home and is ready to go to bed as soon as he eats. It is suppose to cool off by next week I believe.
Next Sat. is our "Relay for Life" I am so looking forward to it. I am having to get some ladies at our church to bring some baked beans for our booth. We are having BBQ. It is only $5.00 a plate. You aren't going to get it any cheaper anywhere else, and it is for a great cause. So come out.
I look in the mirror now and think of this time last year. Man I have come thru so much. My hair has grown back like a afro. I am more over weight than I have ever been. But I am finally feeling pretty normal I think. The medicine I take makes me moody sometimes and makes me feel yucky sometimes, but over all I feel good. I want to start loosing weight. I just need a good kick in the rear. I was thinking this morning that us humans are ridiculas. We go thru a near death experience and we still don't change our lifestyle. Not unless we are on our death bed, but then we get better and we go back to the same ole' thing. I want to change I guess I need to ask God for the help don't I. And then expect Him to answer!
Maybe I need liposuction and a tummy tuck. Who can afford that! I guess that wouldn't be the answer. I have to remember that I had a baby, cancer, and that it took a big toll on my body, but there is still hope right? I am just disgusted with myself!!! It shocks me when I look in the mirror sometimes. and on top of all that I have a twin sister that is smaller than me and that is a reminder too. And now I am the fat twin. Who wants to be the fat twin! Ok I will get off the soap box. I will say that when I say I am fat, Scott says I am not fat! Love is blind:)hehe. But he does love me. I am learning that everyday! It still freaks me out. He loves me!!!
I am so glad today is Friday! This has been a long week it seems. School starts next week. Delaney is going to stay with a lady this School year. I hope it goes well. It doesn't matter who watches her, if it isn't family its going to bug me a little. I hope it is the right thing. When I took her to meet the lady. She was playing with the other kids and didn't want to leave. I guess that is a good thing. She watches 4 others. She has a set of twins that are 3 but they seem to only play with each other. and then there is a 1 year old and a newborn. Then Delaney is 2 1/2. That is alot of kids! I could do it I guess, I just don't want to. I can handle children in small doses.
Friday, August 04, 2006 |
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